sick...

I just found out I have to have surgery again.
As some of y'all know I was in ICU in Kentucky for about 3 months with all kinds of problems. It started out that my intestines somehow got stuck to my abdomen wall...some sort of freak accident caused by scar tissue built up over time from the operation I had when I was a baby. It was just supposed to be outpatient surgery, but somehow I acquired pancreatitis in the hospital in Albany. I kept getting worse and worse and so my dad decided to ship me up to Kentucky because his best friend is a surgeon up there. Anyway, I went up there and got operated on again (for 12 freakin hours!! ahh!) and eventually got better.
THEN I came home and had just gotten my feeding tube out and 2 weeks later got in that stupid car wreck where my pathfinder flipped 4 times and I got thrown out of the driver's side window- (apparently I thought I was "above" the seat-belt law...) I got a concussion and real bad road rash all over, but I was ok. No brain-damage or anything...(at least none that i know of! ;))
For the past two months though, I've been having bad stomach pains again...they narrowed it down to 1.another obstruction in my intestines
2.something wrong with my pancreas, or
3.gallstones
I went the other day to have an ultrasound and they found out I'm covered in gallstones, which means I have to have my gallbladder taken out.
Ultimately it's not that bad because out of those three choices, we would prefer gallstones, so at least that's good.
But I still have to go back up to Kentucky (during Christmas break) and have another surgery.
YAY!! Another Christmas in Kentucky! (this past year I spent Thanksgiving, Christmas, New Years, and Valentine's Day in the hospital. Not fun- trust me.)
I don't want this to sound like a complaint-entry cause it's not. I just don't know what to do though!! I mean, I know the Bible says that God won't give me anything more than I can handle...but it's hard, you know? I hate being "the sick girl." I hate people having to feel sorry for me. I don't like feeling sorry for MYSELF!! But inevitably I always do when I think of what's to come.
Please, if anyone has any advice or encouragement, I'd love to hear it...(gosh! I hate crying!)*sniff*
I love you guys.
Please pray for me...
~Savannah